My Life are Suck..!!!

My life are getting suck enough
Ppl always think I really free on it
But I never though...
My dad health are getting worst than before
Now he can't work well like before
I need put anything down to help him
Help him to take care my family
Even I tired I also need continue like that
That the only way I can do
I don't have any ppl leave me again
However my dad scold me
He also is my dad
I will make it feel better
My relationship not good too
Don't know why
Getting worst now
Isn't I really not suitable for love?
Did I really need to let she go?
I Don't know~
Confusing~
Haiz~

Without me

This few day, I don't even know what happen on us...

Always argue for those small case...

Why??!!

You always say my attitude are worst then worst...

I don't know what you mean of that...

I already concern you much I can do...

But look like useless than I think before

I really unhappy...;(

Not because of you I unhappy...

Is me who can't match with you...

My relationship alwasys become so worst in my life...

I thought this time won't like that anymore...

But now, seem all happening on me again...

Isn't I really not suit for love?

Sorry...

I don't know how to make you happy then now...

I really can't...

Maybe I should disappear from you...

I don't want saw your unhappy again...

I really fed up on me...

What I promise you I can't do it...

Sorry...

I really do...

I can't keep let you smile...

Without me...

Maybe you can...

I will thinking about this...

;(

You are my dream...Babe

Met you by surprise...I didn't realize that my life would change forever by you..

Saw you standing around there...

I didn't know I cared....

There was something special in my life....

Dreams are you...

The only real kind of real fantasy for me...

Illusions just in a common thing....

I try to live in dreams...

It seems as if it's meant to be....

You is a different kind of reality for me

I dream of loving in the night...while I can't sleep well

And loving seems aright although it's only fantasy...

If you do exist...

Hubbydon'r resist

Show me that a new way of loving

Tell me that it's true

Show me what to do

I feel something special about you...

I like to dream now

I dream of you close to me

Loving you seems right perhaps that's my babe...

I wrote this for you...My babe~

Here I am...

I came for you..

My babe...

I been touching by your blog...

Silly babe

Don't ever think that...

You not the useless person for me...

I need you...

How can you say so??

Don't you care my feeling when saying yourself like that?

Don't be so selfish again ya..

If not.....Hehe...You will know what I will do for you...

Don't you?

I lose this competition...

Without you...

I lose anything...

Really...First time I became like that...Worst..

Sorry babe...

That mean I need you...

I really do...Babe...

You hear me??

I know you'll hear it...

You always do...

I know I mind all that night you do for me...

I really no idea on that..

Sorry...

Maybe I too mind about that...

Just because I care about you...

Not I didn't believe you or what..

Hope you will understand it...

Sometimes babe feel I like cold cold on you...

That doesn't mean I didn't care about you...

Is me thinking how I gonna make you more happy than before...

I wan kick out all those memory before me...

I really want to make it real...

But sometimes I don't know how to make you know how much I love you...

I really do..

Love you

My lovely babe...

Did I really don't care about you??

Babe...I wrote this for you...

Isn't I really bad enough for you??

I really care for you...

I have no idea why you keep on say I didn't care about you...

Isn't yesterday night you call your ex then I no respon for you?

Don't you really think I no respon at all?

Don't you forget What I have told you when we wating bus at Genting??

What I say it on your?

Remember?

The photo in your purse?

The ring what you wear on it?

The bear what you holding on?

Honestly

I mind it at all..

Don't you realize that?

Babe~

I really love you..

Don't ever say it again...

Whatever I do on you...

I really care about you..

I really do..

Please believe me..

My lovely babe...

I love you so much

:D

I back from my babe house~

What my babe looking at??

First world view~

A tired week~

I just back from my babe house...

I go she house stay for 5 night..

Last Sunday just arrive there...

I was quite happy when together with my babe..

Unforget memories...

(hehe :D)

This few day we have been a lot place ya

Walk untill my leg pain = =

Sunday we dint go anywhere

because when I arrive already 9pm

Freaking tired la~

No more energy walking~

Just lying in my babe bed

(lol)

She keep on talking with me...

Look like she more happy than me ya

The next day we go genting~

But I sleep late already...

My babe yelling me wake up

but last night too tired lu

So I keep on lying lu~

Babe told me that she buy bus ticket in 9am got to go 1 utama

but when we arrive there already 9 something..

So we mise up the bus

I just buy 10am ticket again..

( >.< )

Babe go genting find she friend

Because she work at there before

So alot friend at there also...

We sitting at starbuck arround 2 hour lu

Quite tired

We been 1U, The Curve, SW, TS, Genting

buy alot thing...

and I gift my babe 1 teddy bear in TS...

she very happy...

Me too..

(hehe :D )

Have alot thing wanna to write

but too much..

So I think I will write it when I free ya

You guys wait me ya

And

Sorry for my Nick bro

I not free at all..

So cant meet with you..

Next time ya..

Love you

babe...

I'm Damn sad~

In March 7th 2009, around 8 0'clock...
My friend was pass away~
When I hear this new~
I feel very impossible~
How come so suddenly happen those thing~
I never wonder it will happen so soon~
I feel very upset~
I just talk with she around 4 days ago...
But yesterday...
She was gone~
Won't appear in this world anymore~
I can't accept this...
She was came from a Single parent life~
She mother was very sad till she can't talk now...
I don't know how to talk with she mother well...
How come this world so cruel~
Just take a person leave this world with so suddenly...
We never wonder that when we will die~
But I really can't figure out that will happen around my friend~
I never through~
Haiz~
I will always remember you...
Wish you have a new life~
My dearly friend...
Miss you...
:(